January 3

It's been a month since I was sent to work as a torture technician in the Shadowed Crypt. I've never interrogated anyone before, let alone learned about torture, and everything is new and frightening to me. I only signed up for the job because I was told I'd be paid more, and now I can't wait to get out of here.

But... Why did Kaligras choose me to be a torture technician and send me here? I'm just an ordinary soldier.

No, I was the weakest of all the people who applied to be sent here, but Kaligras sent me here with the unintelligible words, "You have promise for the future."

I wonder... what does he expect from me?

July 2

Today, the Resistance prisoner I was in charge of died. It was necessary for the Arkeum's cause, but for the first time, I feel guilty for having caused a human being to die.

I didn't mean for him to die.... But strangely, the screams that erupted as I peeled away layer after layer of my captive's flesh made me... excited. It's as if I've become addicted to the screams.

The more I torture, the more I feel like I'm falling apart inside. No, maybe... Maybe it's more accurate to say that something inside me is awakening.

What is this pleasure and joy I've never felt before?

December 31

It's been a year since I became a torture technician in the Shadowed Crypt. I've heard countless screams from the Resistance prisoners I've tortured, and I've finally come to one truth.

Their screams are a glorious expression of joy! At the moment of extreme pain that surpasses human limits... The prisoners screamed in bliss, as if they had been blessed with pleasure.

Why did I only come to realize this self-evident truth now? Pain is pleasure, and so I became an apostle to bestow the blessing of pleasure upon those poor beings. From now on, I will take the importance of my mission to heart and bring the grace of pain to many more people.

With even more brutal tortures than before.